Java Violet

The girl with many names

The muse has returned
So I have been writing a couple of stories on and off for the past few years. It's just a little something to keep me occupied in between bouts of bordom and depression.

But I haven't felt much like it in the last few weeks. Sure, I have my notepad open, pen in hand... but nothing comes to me. I mindless write notes and ideas that pretty much make no sense to me when I read them back.

Then yesterday, in between high volumes of coffee and a bite of a brownie that had WAY too many chocolate chips in it, the muse came back. I was caffienated and the muse spoke to me softly. Write she pushed as I open my WORD 2003 problem and began to type for what seemed like hours. Just my muse and I, along with some music on my cell phone on "shuffle".

Together we created worlds, characters and texture. I was scared to pull myself away from the computer screen, for that sneaky muse has an awfully bad habit of ditching me when I leave for a few moments to re-enter my daily reality. To do the mundane daily activities like pay bills, use the restroom, talk to my wife etc..

I'm back

I had planned to write this beautifully compelling blog entry that would you charmed and utterly taken by it's author, but sadly that's not going to happen.

I'm having "one of those days" where the words seem to escape me and it's all I can do to keep from pulling my hair out at it's root from frustration. The frustration, in question, has no cause - it simply rears it's ugly head around in my life making my life even less manageable than it already was before.

This, my friends, is apart of the dysfunctional world of being Bi-Polar, where the carousel of emotions never end and the vast amounts of caffeine I had today aren't helping me out much.

I promise the next entry to be much more entertaining and awe inspiring.

hiding my musical shame
Silence Evanescence
Sometimes, I'm actually glad that I listen to my CD player/iPod more then I do my winamp.

I pulled out this out mp3 cd I made years ago at my friend's house and for some strange reason decided to play it. OMG.. this thing is just too embarassing to mention. It has everything from old old Destiny's Child to a whole of songs that may have been banned away to suffer a slow death in the Now! cd collections.

Sleep has left me..
black and white danny
It's turning out that sleep isn't a friend of mine.

At lease, not on the night's that I have to go work. My brain tell's me that I should get some sleep to be able to function along the working grind, but my body just lays there wide awake counting the hours as they pass by.

9:00 a.m.   Close eyes and pretend within the next hour you can go to sleep.

10:00 a.m.   Close eyes and pretend to be asleep and repeat.

11:00  a.m.   Close eyes and pretend to be asleep and repeat.

By 2 p.m. I just gave up, especially since I have to get used to being at work by 10:30 p.m. instead of my usaually 11:30 p.m.

Overall... ARGH!!

Do you me musically?
Okay kids this musical meme is interesting...

Instead of me having to force my musical likes/dislikes down your throat. This actually tests your knowledge of me. Musically speaking.

I'm gonna list my top 20 favorite bands/artists and your job is to guess my favorite song from each.

1. Depeche Mode
2. Violent Femmes
3. Oingo Boingo
4. Garbage
5. Dead Can Dance
6. Nine Inch Nails
7. David Bowie
8. Peter Gabriel
9. Korn
10. The Smiths
11. Massive Attack
12. Portishead
13. Elton John
14. Nick cave and the bad seeds
15. Pet Shop Boys
16. Poe
17. Siousxie and the Banshees
18. Evanescence
19. The Cure
20. Moby

Okay, give it a shot. And if you don't any of these bands, well I feel sad for you. There is more to music then emo. Explode your musical horizons people!

Elfman/Burton Signing
So I went to West Hollywood last night to the Elfman/Burton signing.By 4 something p.m., the lines were already starting to get pretty big so my husband and I just sat there with everyone else for 5 hours 'till the time arrived.

It was a complete and total mismash of people there:  young.. old.. goth.. normal.. the wannabe nightmare fans (you know who you are.. the ones who went way way too overboard with their love for the movie. Yeah we get it.. you love it.)

They were being super strict over how many items could be signed.. and apparently you were only allowed to take one picture, as one of the guards rudely told me. And the picture had to be taken pretty far away which kinda sucked actually.

I got my copy of "Corpse Bride" signed and the guys even wrote Happy Birthday on it since it was sort of my birthday.

Birthday.. Valentine's Day Eve... Elfman love
black and white danny
So today is my 25th birthday :)

 I spent it eating my annual birthday burger at Red Robin Gourmet Burgers. Actually, I didn't have a burger this year. I had a side salad with cajun chicken strips, but that isn't really the point is it? The point is that so far my birthday is ending up being pretty laid back and even delightful.

After eating, my husband and I walked around the mall and hit "Hot Topic" and I found the coolest Freddy Kruger shirt I think I have ever seen before. This one is entirely black except for the Fredester, who is placed directly on the shirt of the shirt. When I wore it.. it looked like his claw was trying to take a piece of my boob. (LOL)

I decided that this would be the shirt I will wear tomorrow at the signing...

Oh I forgot, I haven't mentioned it here yet. Tomorrow Danny Elfman and Tim Burton are doing a "Corpse Bride" DVD signing in West Hollywood and I'm going. :) I wasn't going to at first... but the idea of regret started to haunt me. And after hours of thinking about it, the conclusion I came up with is this: I simply live within the realms of safe comfort of my house everyday. How am I ever to discover new things or people being a hermit?

My husband also knew that if I didn't go, I would sit home on Valentine's Day and make his life miserable, which is probably true. i saw no real no real point agruing with him.

So hopefully I will come back tomorrow night with a signed dvd, a fit of gitty laughter and perhaps a photo.

We shall see.

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Just one of those days..
Silence Evanescence
I have a complete and total headache that doesn't appear to leave anytime soon.

An aching lower back that reminds how close to my period I really am.

A stomach ache that keeps me stuck in the inbetweens. It doesn't know what it wants.. I get very hungry, only to feel sick to my stomch a few minutes later..

And the weather man says that there is rain coming up in the forecast.

I think I'm going to hide between the warmth of my favorite blanket, watch "Aqua Teen Hunger Force" and wait for everything to blow over.

100 things
black and white danny

Just because I was bored and needed to get my mind from thinking deep thoughts. They only get me into trouble.

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